‘Mr. Rochester, I will not be yours.’
Another long silence.
‘Jane!’ recommenced he, with a gentleness that broke me down with grief, and turned me stone-cold with ominous terror- for this still voice was the pant of a lion rising- ‘Jane, do you mean to go one way in the world, and to let me go another?’
‘I do.’
‘Jane’ (bending towards and embracing me), ‘do you mean it now?’
‘I do.’
‘And now?’ softly kissing my forehead and cheek.
‘I do,’ extricating myself from restraint rapidly and completely.
‘Oh, Jane, this is bitter! This- this is wicked. It would not be wicked to love me.’
‘It would to obey you.’
A wild look raised his brows- crossed his features: he rose; but he forbore yet. I laid my hand on the back of a chair for support: I shook, I feared- but I resolved.
‘One instant, Jane. Give one glance to my horrible life when you are gone. All happiness will be torn away with you. What then is left? For a wife I have but the maniac upstairs: as well might you refer me to some corpse in yonder churchyard. What shall I do, Jane? Where turn for a companion and for some hope?’
‘Do as I do: trust in God and yourself. Believe in heaven. Hope to meet again there.’
‘Then you will not yield?’
‘No.’
‘Then you condemn me to live wretched and to die accursed?’ His voice rose.
‘I advise you to live sinless, and I wish you to die tranquil.’
‘Then you snatch love and innocence from me? You fling me back on lust for a passion- vice for an occupation?’
‘Mr. Rochester, I no more assign this fate to you than I grasp at it for myself. We were born to strive and endure- you as well as I: do so. You will forget me before I forget you.’
‘You make me a liar by such language: you sully my honour. I declared I could not change: you tell me to my face I shall change soon. And what a distortion in your judgment, what a perversity in your ideas, is proved by your conduct! Is it better to drive a fellow-creature to despair than to transgress a mere human law, no man being injured by the breach? for you have neither relatives nor acquaintances whom you need fear to offend by living with me?’
This was true: and while he spoke my very conscience and reason turned traitors against me, and charged me with crime in resisting him. They spoke almost as loud as Feeling: and that clamoured wildly. ‘Oh, comply!’ it said. ‘Think of his misery; think of his danger- look at his state when left alone; remember his headlong nature; consider the recklessness following on despair- soothe him; save him; love him; tell him you love him and will be his. Who in the world cares for you? or who will be injured by what you do?’
Still indomitable was the reply- ‘I care for myself. The more solitary, the more friendless, the more unsustained I am, the more I will respect myself. I will keep the law given by God; sanctioned by man. I will hold to the principles received by me when I was sane, and not mad- as I am now. Laws and principles are not for the times when there is no temptation: they are for such moments as this, when body and soul rise in mutiny against their rigour; stringent are they; inviolate they shall be. If at my individual convenience I might break them, what would be their worth? They have a worth- so I have always believed; and if I cannot believe it now, it is because I am insane- quite insane: with my veins running fire, and my heart beating faster than I can count its throbs. Preconceived opinions, foregone determinations, are all I have at this hour to stand by: there I plant my foot.’
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